What do i mean by leftovers? Well, I mean I gave Him what was left after a long day of classes, homework and even time spent with friends or on social media...instead of waking up and starting my day off with Christ, I waited until almost the end of my day then sat down with Him. I dislike days like these but I do it all too often. I come up with excuse after excuse as to why i push my quiet time aside. However, a few weeks ago I led a small group at a d-now and I made a commitment with my girls to have more days where God gets the best of me, the fresh, the new, not days like today, not leftovers. I have also been telling myself that to help keep me accountable I want to get back into sharing what God places on my heart in this blog. So... If you are close to me then you know I struggled with a really bad break up about 2 months ago. This wasn't just me loosing my bf, it was me loosing my best friend. This guy and I had been friends since we were 13. However, things ended and I was crushed. My family/friends hurt for me because I was so upset. I am better now, but still have my days were the memories sort of sting but for the most part I remember the good times and try not to dwell on the bad or the future plans. This is all great except I didn't fully realize, until Friday night worship service of the d-now, that I was fostering anger in my heart toward this whole situation. I kept telling myself i'm fine and truthfully I am okay with how things have turned out but I still needed to forgive and let go. I broke down during worship because God was telling me that I cannot fully worship Him until I have repented and given Him my all. Until I forgave my ex and gave the anger and hurt over to God, I could not experience the true worship that David talks about in Psalms 51. Well, I have surrendered it all to God and feel much better about everything. I try to remember that... "No love of the natural heart is safe unless the human heart has been satisfied by God first." -Oswald Chambers To go along with this... my qt today...though it was my leftovers...was Isaiah 54. I really enjoyed verse 5, where it talks about how the maker is our husband is the the redeemer and God of all the Earth. This verse just reminds me that....
This is a picture from my qt journal today!
LOVE is found in GOD Alone!!
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